Well as the tittle say...i decided.
in case ppl dun noe anything...i been attack by satan for quite sometime...even now
then i slowly getting off the path...sitting on the fence...not doing anything but things i like.

it take me time for me to fight...until 2day
i been thinking...why do i accept christ...what actually make me want to serve god
than i rmb...i wanted to protect someone...daniel.
slowly...i been around others...feeling their seriousness for god...david ho showed me the bridge diagram and i understand the whole thing...and i know what i should do...i accept christ

right now i'm a part of someone's life...be it for a moment...what do others feel if i just die...will i be miss?will someone just say"bing jun...i miss your gayness"...dun think so...i mabe just even be forgotten after a period of time...being at a funeral...i saw my grandfather's brother in the coffin...i wonder...do they ACTUALLY want to go though all this...what does it matter? dun we just die and our bodies end up at some places for the animals and plants?Most importantly...can they even RECEIVE the things we are doing for them...burning paper...joss sticks...go around the coffin with a crazy guy that wont stop ringing the bell....let alone all this increase the pollution...

All put aside...i know what i should do...if i don want to be forgotten...i must first be known...who here dun noe newton or einstein?i wanted to go around the world...reaching out to ppl with a bike and a guitar on my back...mabe a camera so i can give the footage to other hope churches...

BUT RIGHT NOW I DARE TO SAY...SATAN, YOUR ATT MABE BE STRONG...BUT IM STILL GONNA KICK YOUR BUTT...(if i can)...

I joined the security ministry is to protect the other members...so if anyone of you ppl out there want to harm anyone of us...you have to go through me...i make my point clear here...

with that i will end of the prayer with a short summary of job 30-31...

it seems to me that as male...we have problem with lust...
back to topic...
these verse say that job was in need of god to help him...to feed the poor, bringing light to the ppl...IF all of us DON be a salt and light...not following his words...are we not a average human...running around for nothing but the wind...are we just doing something that is not meaningful?...if we done that...what are we goona do if we need to account...how will it feel if u just tell god..."God, i saw a man with no arms, legs and he is hungry...i have a loaf of bread in my hand, and i just threw NOTHING to him...Nothing at all...not even a crumb"...how will God feels?...so i ended it with a prayer...

DEAR JESUS,
It seems to me that you are trying to tell me that being a salt and light when u are at your deepest valley is better than doing nothing when u are at the mountain top.Lord, i pray that i will be able to spread your love in the darkness...be the light to guide ppl in the valley. SHOW THEM what is light. Leading them away from the darkness Satan have done. He may be bo liao doing all these...but God...i pray that we as your children, we be able to get away from all mindless things...God i know that my walk with you is weak...strengthen them...make them unmovable...not even the beauty and the wealth will shatter my faith for you...in jesus name i pray.AMEN